Updates:

wow... its been a very long time since i wrote on here. well, 12 days. thats a long time IMO. im just gonna write some updates on here about how things are going, what i've been up to & changes...

well, first things first, i'm back at work after 3 months off... i'm on a "phased return" which basically means i start off working there part-time so i can get used to it again & get back into the swing of things... so far it has been... well, kind of crappy, but it was a lot worse before i left for a little while. a particularly horrible team leader is no longer working there so that has made it much more bearable.

this particular team leader was one of the most obnoxious, horrible, in-your-face people it has ever been my displeasure to know or work with... so with her gone & working on a different shift, things are much more pleasent. but sadly, not quite pleasent enough. there's still the pompous arse managers i have to put up with... & the foreign workers who can't speak english & seem to think i'm strange because i dont speak Polski... fucking foreign BASTARDS. Ahem...

& the work is as tedious as ever... i still get a bad back & aching feet from standing in the same spot for hours on end... but it does give me time to think... i mean, not many people at work talk to me because we are from different countries so there is the language barrier, inability to understand one anothers accents etc. etc. etc.... so its rare that i do really speak to many people apart from the occassional english person... i stay relatively left-alone, thank god.

but the noise in that place is unbearable sometimes... the machinery, the foreigners swarking fuck-knows-what really loudly in polish/russian/lithuanian or w/e it is... it is all quite depressing really. the managers shouting to each other & shouting at staff... its very unnerving & puts me on edge which i dont really appreciate...

so thats work... depressing as usual.

now some more pleasent updates: i have rekindled my love affair with books. i hadnt read a book in quite some time before the last couple of days. depression does take away pretty much all of your motivation to do anything productive or requiring effort. but the other day i felt up to reading, & so i purchased the "Stephen Fry In America" book, & finished reading it on just 3 days. it was fascinating. & Stephen Fry is a new hero of mine. & although i'm relatively new to his work, i can safely say that i am a huge huge HUGE fan of Mr. Fry... a truly remarkable man.

the next book i want to read is by a guy called Kyle MacDonald called "One Red Paperclip"... it looks very intersting & i shall be buying it tomorrow after i finish my shift in hell...

hmmm what else.... ive started playing World of Warcraft again... i have a level 23 Dreinei warrior atm...

erm... Rocki is doing really well :) i love my little dog, she's pretty much my only reason for living...

ok, ive come to a realisation that i actually dont need, or want, any friends 2bh... i suck at maintaining friendships & relationships so i think it would be better for me & for everyone else if i just stayed away from everybody else... i like being alone... i dont really want a girlfriend either...

also, ive put on a load of weight... im not a skinny pin anymore :-P & people have noticed that im getting bigger & theyve said that it suits me... now might be the time to start working out & getting muscular instead of getting fat. thats a cool look for a loner wierdo like me, long-ish hair with big-ass muscles... yeah, i could go for that look...

anyway thats about it...

until next time :)