Oooooook......

ive had a little bit of time to think about the current situation at work, and its not as bad as i thought...

at first, i was annoyed that a woman from the HR department was coming to my house on wednesday for a chat, as i'd seen it as some stranger just inviting themselves round to my house and i thought it was very rude and didn't think they had the right to do so... however, i have thought about it and have come to this conclusion: it is company policy for her to come to my house and check on me, it was not HER idea... so why be mad at her??? i shouldn't be...

...and i no longer am!! in fact, i see it as a good oppurtunity. she will be coming to my house for an informal chat, and to see if there is a job which is better suited to my current state of health.. there may be something within the company that i hadn't thought of before and may have the oppurtunity to try something new.. something completely different.. perhaps???

and i still have another 3 weeks to prepare myself to go back to work.. 3 weeks to relax.. 3 weeks of more ME time...

i went into work 2day to hand in my second doctors note, and spoke to a HR co-ordinator briefly, and to my manager.. they seemed sympathetic enough and told me to take off as much time as i felt necassary.. being managers and office staff, i can imagine that they are all too familiar with stress related problems and so can sympathise with my problems, even though we do completely different jobs..

so im thinking that maybe this isnt so bad.. having had some time to think it through, it seems to be quite the opposite...

lets just see how it goes! :)