Oooooook......

ive had a little bit of time to think about the current situation at work, and its not as bad as i thought...

at first, i was annoyed that a woman from the HR department was coming to my house on wednesday for a chat, as i'd seen it as some stranger just inviting themselves round to my house and i thought it was very rude and didn't think they had the right to do so... however, i have thought about it and have come to this conclusion: it is company policy for her to come to my house and check on me, it was not HER idea... so why be mad at her??? i shouldn't be...

...and i no longer am!! in fact, i see it as a good oppurtunity. she will be coming to my house for an informal chat, and to see if there is a job which is better suited to my current state of health.. there may be something within the company that i hadn't thought of before and may have the oppurtunity to try something new.. something completely different.. perhaps???

and i still have another 3 weeks to prepare myself to go back to work.. 3 weeks to relax.. 3 weeks of more ME time...

i went into work 2day to hand in my second doctors note, and spoke to a HR co-ordinator briefly, and to my manager.. they seemed sympathetic enough and told me to take off as much time as i felt necassary.. being managers and office staff, i can imagine that they are all too familiar with stress related problems and so can sympathise with my problems, even though we do completely different jobs..

so im thinking that maybe this isnt so bad.. having had some time to think it through, it seems to be quite the opposite...

lets just see how it goes! :)

stressin out!!

i got a letter this morning saying work is sending someone to my house, so im gonna be having this office woman from work coming to my house on wednesday because im off sick and gonna be for the next few weeks and im gettin nervous about it.. i mean im tellin the truth and theres no reason to really be nervous about it but i know theyre gonna be trying to ask me some "trick questions" and trying to catch me out...

again, ive not lied once and its not like im hiding anything, so its not like they can catch me out, but im still upset about it..

one thing thats annoyed me is the fact that she just invited herself round to my house to have a discussion.. how rude!! u cant just invite yourself over to somebody elses house! the nerve of these priks!! :( so im a mix of sad and angry at the moment, and just when i started to finally become sort of happy again i get some tosser coming round to my house trying to "find out what ive been really doing".. i'll tell you what ive been doing, ive been trying to relax and have been going to therapy and doctors appointments!! but how am i meant to relax when ive got to worry about some wierdo coming to my house???

im pzzd off about it..